I sometimes get really depressed about
my friends here at school. For the most
part I don't think about how I'm the
"fourth wheel" but its becoming more
frequent now....Allie and Jacqui and
Danica are in the honors program together
and they live in the same part of the building
so I know they have more to talk about
with each other...but it makes me feel
like I'm just their "other friend"...the
one they only hang with occasionally and
isn't really allowed into their circle.
So basically I have some sort of friends...
and no really good one's at all...and that
makes me feel like such a loser. I don't mean
to complain so much about it but this is
really the only time I can actually talk
about it...I certainly can't tell them...
I mean what are they going to say?
"oh well we're sorry we make you feel that way"
while they secretly agree that its true...
that we aren't great friends...I don't want
to see that on their faces...the mild rejection.
But that means that I'm alone...again...per usual.

I don't know....maybe it's me...maybe I'm
the one who needs to change, but the ways
in which I feel I would need to change would
mean compromising who I am...maybe if I drank more,
or wasn't so shy about sex, maybe if I did
pot occasionally then they would be more likely
to include me...maybe if I was more like them...
but then I wouldn't be me at all...
The more I think about it the more I realize
that the world isn't changing for the better
as I get older and see more things...it's
actually narrowing in it's abilities to impress
and awe me anymore... I don't like the things I
see in people and in the world. But then again...
maybe it's just me.

Wow, so it has been a really
long time since I have written in
here. I don't really think to update
this much anymore. Life has been a
little crazy lately. Working and trying
to find time to hang out with my family
plus my friends has gotten a little more
complicated. But I really like earning
money and saving it.
Ummm so what is new hm? Not too much really.
My family and I are going to go camping
for 5 days this next coming Thursday,
so I am excited about that. Umm my love
life is non-xistent but I really dont care...
Umm I DID get to finally meet Skylar and it
was cool, he might come back down again this summer.
Hmmm what else has happened? Umm Kitty got her license
and I am getting ready to take my test. I might fail
but even if I do it will be ok, cause I can go
for it again and hopefully do better. I REALLY
want to get it!! LEt's seee.... OHD was great!
(It always is! It was uber hot out that day,
but I had fun at the parade and booksale.I also
went to Krisina's party that day and then went
back to OHD for a bandstand preformance.
Then Kitty and her Friends and I went back home,
went swimming, boating and then ate hamburgers
and hotdogs and headed for the fireworks a few
hours early.
Anyway I can't think of anything else to write in
here at the moment so I will just go. BYE!!

SUMMER!!! yay!! hehehe
Anyway I'm home for the summer
and I probably won't write much
cause I get distracted and there
is alot going on haha. But just
a quick update...I'm working at
my dad's office this summer and
so far I like it alot and I just
put a bunch of money in the bank
so I'm really excited!!! Also
I am having throat and breathing
issues so I have to go see a doctor
to see if I am allergic to something
but in the meantime it's really
annoying and frustrating and I
feel weird all the time...especially
since its effecting my breathing...
GAH!! Anyway umm what else...OH
I am finally going to meet Skylar
this coming Saturday...maybe...if my
dad is ok with it...umm also Kitty,
Kristina, Danielle and I are having
a sleepover/chick flick marathon on
Friday which should be really fun!!
Well so far thats about it :P

Bye Bye!!!

It has been awhile since I have
written in here...lol I have been
kind of busy with school lately
and my social life is alot better
than it used to be so I don't have
as much time or even really remember
to write in here. Anyway not much
has been going on really...the other
day I rented A History of Violence
and Memoirs of a Geisha...HOV was weird
and really violent haha and Memoirs was
pretty good, though not as good as the
book, but I expected so.

Ummm what else?.....Hmm today we
filmed our live interview for our MES
190 production class, and we totally
nailed it on the first take!!! We kicked
major ass!!! oh man I mean it, we did
a really good job, and now I have
no more labs and I'm really excited about
that! lol It was def a good class tho, I
was nervous about it at first but I had
fun and learned alot and yeah Nat was a
cool teacher so, and the people in my group
are all really cool, well...except NOAH!
lol

Anyway after tomorrow, only one more
week until finals! Woot woot!! I can't believe
I'm going to be a junior in college soon! It's
crazy and Kitty will be graduating high school
which is even crazier! haha and Taylor will be
graduating middle school and my Aunt Kris
is graduating from college in a few weeks, I'm so
proud of her!! I cant wait to fly out there and
see everyone! :)

Wow...am I excited much today!? haha anyway I
gtg eat dinner, then finish watching Memoirs
of a Geisha, and do some hw...bye bye!!

So...life has been pretty boring
lately, though not in a bad way.
It's nice to have a sort of mellow
week or two, especially with school
ending soon. I can't wait til it is
officially summer and I can not worry
about projects, and grades...or eat crappy
cafeteria food and get away from all these
superficial ppl. I will miss getting to see
some ppl almost every day though. There's
this guy that I like but nothing has
happened yet and since its so close til
the end of school I'm not sure anything will...
or even if he likes me enough to do a sorta
long distance thing ya know? SADNESS :(
Im trying not to get too depressed about it
and just enjoy the time I do have.
I have been hanging out alot more with
Danica, Will, Craig, Jacqui and even Allie
and it has been nice to find friends finally!
I'm just so sad they are like all possibly
moving to Portland next year and I'll be
stuck here in boring-as-hell Gorham...lol

Anyway in one week it'll be a month until I
fly to Reno to see my Aunt Kristen graduate
and I am SOOO excited for her!! I cant wait
to see everyone for a few days and hang out :)
Also in one week it will be my dad's birthday!!
Oh and Tim's birthday too! haha crazyness...
Anyway not too much else to say so I'll just go
now. bye bye!

~Devon~

So it has been awhile since I have
written in here. I think it has
been almost a month, which is really
abnormal for me...I've been busy
and my mind has been preoccupied
with other things I suppose. I will
try to write more regularly again.
I just got back today from spring break,
and it was a really relaxing and chill
time. Spent alot of time reading,
watching my favorite movies, cooking
food that actually tastes good unlike
the food here haha...Jenn came over for
a few days which was fun, and I taught
her how to knit, and she picked it up
really fast! Also we raked the entire lawn
and cleaned out the gutters on the roof.
We had alot of fun but then I
had to make her leave so I could
actually get some homework done lol.

Umm other than that I really didnt go
out too much. I went to the movies
to see "She's the Man" with Danica
which was actually really funny and
then we went to Panera Bread to eat,
where we ran into Willie... :) lol and
then last night I went over to my mum's
and ate pizza with the girls and we
watched Pride and Prejudice...the new
one with Keira Knightley..yuck! But the
movie is great, I just dont like her lol...
And I showed mum the scarf I made out of
the yarn she gave me, it came out really
pretty!

Ummmm my sister broke her wrist...she fell
down during tennis and landed on it...this
is the second time she has broken a bone in
her left arm, which really sucks b.c now she
has to wear a cast to prom, for her driving test,
for her ballroom dancing and possibly for
graduation! I feel really bad about it too.
I'm the only one in my fam who hasnt
broken a bone yet...and they keep breaking
them ins tead of me...though I really
dont want to break one just so that they won't
anymore lol

Anyway thats my vacation right there! lol
Fun stuff hm? Well I have some more homework
to finish before classes tomorrow, ugh!
But hey only 5 more weeks!! w00t :)
Latahs
*DEVON*

So this is few days late... but I had such a good birthday!
I actually had like a two day celebration hehe, So I will
tell you my story! I got invited to go free bowling by my
friend Craig and so I went bowling(which was sooo fun) on
thursday night with my friends Will, Danica, Mark and Craig
til about 11....got back on campus at like 12...then went to
their room and hung out. Then Will and Danica left to go to
her room (they're dating) lol and I hung out with Craig(who
I think likes me but I'm not entirely sure, so I'm just
playing it by ear), we played some cards, then made popcorn
and watched Robin Hood Prince of Thieves...but it was 3AM
when it was over!! And we were exhausted so he walked me over
to my dorm, and I crashed...but I woke up at 8:00...so I was
realllly tired the next day.I woke up to find lots of Happy
Birthday messages on my computer which was nice :) Then I had
to work on a project (eh) for like 5 hours (ew). But when I
was done I got a call about a flower delivery and dad had sent
some really pretty pink/purple/white flowers! Anyway I mostly
relaxed most of the day...took a long shower, talked to ppl
online, bought a painting! My friend Jeff (really cute!) makes
these spraypaint paintings, which are really nice, so I bought
one from him, which was really exciting for him, because he
has never sold any of his art before.It's of Audrey Hepburn

But yeah so I talked to him for quite awhile, funny conversation
...and he said he would like to go to the Grind(local coffee
shop where his art will be shown) for my birthday, but he was
working on some more art and got held up so my friend Danica
IMed me and asked if I had any plans for my b-day which I hadnt
currently so I suggested the Grind to her...and we invited our
other friend Jacqui to come, and my roomate Elisabeth, and we
drove to the coffee shop, got drinks, and talked for a bit.
Then we went to the video store to pick out a movie, only we were
talking about movies sooo much, that it took us an hour just to
get out of there hehe. Then we went to Hannaford and got a Black
Forest Cake and some sparkling cider, and drove back to campus
and up to our room. We ended up just talking for a few hour about
movies and books and stuff, then we finally watched "In Her Shoes"
which was fantastic (I recommend it highly), ate some yummmmy cake
and cider....but it was 2AM when the movie ended so Danica and
Jacqui went back to there rooms to sleep...and me and Eli crashed
like ASAP lol Two nights of staying up late is going to haunt
me for awhile.

Anyway that is my extremely long birthday story (I like to tell stories, but they end up long and complicated lol) But I thought it might interest someone a little....maybe not.... lol

~Devon~

I made four more icons!

hehehe I love making icons! Two Love Actually icons and two drew one's

Enjoy!!

Start withand get this

Crop, resize, sharpen base

Duplicate base, set to soft light @ 100%

Copy background, bring to top and then fill with #F5BFF4 or
and set to color 100%

Copy background, bring to top, set @ softlight at 100%

Then use this dark blue
at exclusion set at 100%

New layer, fill with #94ADF6 or
and set at Burn 100%

Next use this brush at 100% screen, but flip and mirror it first

New layer, add this flower brush in #110A72 if you want

Also add text in the same color if you so desire

And viola!



Enjoy!!

I've made some icons! I just got back into it,
and it is sooo fun! My sister Kitty was the
one who showed me the tutorial to use, so thank you Kitty!!

I hope you like these and if you do feel free to take one but
please credit me for them!!! Comments would be appreciated
about them!